Someone once asked me, a long time ago, how I could possibly know what was right and what was wrong in the world if I didn’t have God in my life. I’m Agnostic for those who don’t know. Though I was a Christian for a long time when I was younger, I became Agnostic as a teenager, ’round about my 17th birthday. A = no (or not), and gnostic = knowledge so Agnostic = no knowledge. Some people call us “Atheist lite” but they’re wrong; at least they are in my case. I believe in the possibility of many things, including the Christian God, or hell any god really. I mean, the Christian God isn’t the only one out there you know, it’s just the most popular in my country. Anyway, for me, being Agnostic means that I actually believe that anything might exist (or might not) if it hasn’t been proven to exist. For example, I don’t say that any god exists, but I don’t deny that god’s existence either. Because I don’t know. I can’t know. Until one pops up in front of me and smacks me in the face with its existence, well, I just can’t know.
I love this movie… old but gold.
Now, I’m not belittling the person who asked me this question, because in her mind there is no world without her god nor her religion, and she was genuinely puzzled — and worried about my soul I’ve no doubt. And I know that she asked these questions from a good place in her heart. But it also completely floored me to think that she felt that without a god to guide me, I could not have a moral compass of my own. (see, it is about the daily prompt). After a long conversation with my friend, and she was a good friend of mine at the time, she eased her mind by convincing herself that because I’d been Christian as a child, I’d learned right from wrong then… that my moral compass had been set by the teachings I’d learned during my Christian years.
My friend comforted herself with the knowledge that although I’ve strayed from the path as an adult, my childhood upbringing is what counted. She concluded our conversation as most Christians would, that she would pray for me and hope that perhaps I would find my way back into the fold again. Well, it’s been thirty years since I turned away from Christianity, and a good twenty years since I had that conversation. I’m fairly sure that my moral compass is still intact. I mean, I tend to stay on the sunny side of legal, and I haven’t killed anyone lately… not in real life anyway. Virtually, well there’s another story. ^_^ Worry not, dear reader, I’ve never killed anyone — not that I know of. Yet! Ha! I kid! I kid! I couldn’t kill anyone if I tried. I’m totally a goody two-shoes. Despite being a heathen. Of course, murder isn’t the greatest “sin” one can commit in some religions, but it’s possibly the greatest legal crime on can commit. And therein lies the rub.
When you start talking about moral sin and legal misdeeds, they don’t always coincide. There are many things I’ve done in my life that are perfectly legal, but would be considered — by Christian standards — morally ambiguous at best and downright sinful at the very least. I mean, let’s face it, if there is a Christian God, and I stand before the Pearly gates at the event of my death, and I’m judged by the laws in the book of man (the Bible), then yeah, I’m burning in Hell — if there is a Hell, and if it is, indeed, made of fire and brimstone. Because even though I’m a pretty good person, and I haven’t done anything that I think is morally wrong, by Christian standards, I’m one of the sinniest sinners who’s ever sinned. Now, I don’t agree with that, because I live fairly simply by following the Golden Rule (pictured below) and also by the Wiccan Rede – If it harms no one, do what you will. – even though I’m not Wiccan. I mean there really isn’t much more morally beyond, Don’t do anything to anyone else that you wouldn’t do to yourself. if you think about it. I don’t know why people make things so complicated. There are many things written in the books of man (Bible, Quran, Torah, &c…) that are considered a “sin” that I just don’t give a flying fuck about. I’ll leave those to the people who want to follow their self imposed rules and I’ll live my life as I please. Since I don’t know fersure if there is an all-powerful god or not waiting to judge me, nor am I certain under which rules that god is going to judge me, I’ll just keep on keeping on. My moral compass is set true for me, and I’m okay with it. If I find out I’m wrong after I’m dead, well then I guess I’ll deal with the consequences then.
And that’s about all I have to say about that. ^_^