I’m gonna talk about Living in the Now for a minute because that’s what the daily prompt brought to mind. Because in the blink of an eye everything can change… or not. Things might stay the same for ages and ages. But then again, they might not. You never know, and that’s the point. The future is unknown, and all we have is right now. Living in the Now — for me — isn’t all about living my life as if it will end at any moment. Well, it is but it isn’t. When most people hear that, “Live your life as if every moment is your last.” they get this idea that one should Live free! or Live recklessly! Because this might be the last moment they have in this world so they must Live with abandonment! You know, go skydiving, or bungee jumping, or any other thrill seeking thing they can think of. Look death in the face every day and say, “I’m not afraid of you!” And hey, if that’s the way some people want to live their lives, who am I to say they’re wrong. No one, that’s who. Me? I would get burned out very quickly on that kind of lifestyle. I thought about bungee jumping once, considered it while I watched other people do it. It looked like they were having a blast, but decided that it wasn’t for me. Such things aren’t for everyone. To each their own.
No, my kind of Live in the Now is much more mellow. Way more mellow. I walk through my life with the knowledge that I’m living on borrowed time. We all are. I heard a line in a song once that summed it up for me pretty well… “The price for living is dying and it’s one that everybody pays.” or something like that. Actually, there was a scene in The Last Unicorn when the wizard, Schmendrick I think his name was, turned the unicorn into a human and she said, “I can feel this body dying all around me.” I was, like, 16 when that movie came out, and man, did that line hit me hard. Age 16 is when a lot of things kind of clicked in place in my psyche. Anyway, we all start dying from the moment we take our first breath, it’s just a matter of when and where. I’ve actually known this on a subconscious level since I was a child and one of my cats died. My mom pointed out, rather bluntly that, “Everything dies.” And that was that. Everything dies. My existence in the scheme of things is but a blink in the timeline of everything. Hardly noticeable. I’m a dot in humanity, as are we all. Even the greatest of all people will be forgotten, and I’m so far from great (though I am awesome) I’ll be forgotten probably ten years after I’m dead and gone. So yeah… now is the best time for… anything.
Life, dear reader, is relatively short even though it is the longest thing we will ever do — live our lives. But when you think about it, none of us can live in our past — though some people desperately try their best. And others will try to meticulously plan their futures, but all of the planning in the world cannot shape the future. I know, I’ve tried. And I’ve watched other people’s plans go down in flames. Think about it, there are 7 billion people living on this beautiful world of ours (along with countless other animals and entities), and most of them don’t give a flying fig what anyone else’s plans are, because they have lives of their own. And their lives and possible plans, are just as important as anyone else’s, including mine. And all of these people, animals and entities are walking around with their own ideas and lives that may or may not be congruent to some stranger’s well laid goals. Most of us, dear reader, are simply trying to live our lives as peacefully as possible. I, myself, tend not to set goals or make plans because whenever I do, life has a way of saying, “hold my beer” and showing me what an exercise in frustration and futility such things are.
So, I live in the here and now as much as possible. The future is unknown to me. I accept that I will probably live another moment with the passing of each breath, but I do not take it as guaranteed that I will. The probability is that I’ll finish writing this blog post and then go about my daily business. That is what this moment is all about, writing this blog post. Contrary to popular belief, I don’t sit around basking or worrying about my mortality. Oh god, oh god, I’m going to die… or whatever. I accepted death a long time ago. The fact that I’m going to die is just something I realized and helped crystallize my In the Now mentality. When one comes to the understanding that one is mortal, well it just makes things like past transgressions and the outrage du jour meaningless. Why get all worked up about these things when the first is said and done and the second will be over and done with in the blink of an eye? I only have this moment. I don’t want to fill this moment with pain and anguish if I don’t have to. I have enough difficulties with my rebellious body to deal with without borrowing trouble from the past or bringing in trouble from outside sources.