The Dangers of Dreaming Big

A while back I posted about my little dream of owning a small piece of property with a retail store attached and maybe opening up a thrifty type store to sell reclaimed crafty goods — or something like that. Owning a retail store is something I’ve dreamed about for a long time. And I’ve always… always… wanted to own the building and live in it. It’s just way more convenient that way and if I want to do something with the store in the middle of the night… well it’s right there. There are drawbacks to this of course — there are drawbacks to everything, but this has been my vision from the start.

Anyway, part of making a dream a reality is doing a little research, and so I’ve been looking at businesses that are on the market right now just so see what’s what. I found this listing:

Sandia Crest House

That, dear reader, is the Sandia Crest House, and it sits on top of the one of the peaks of the Sandia mountains. It has a gift shop, a cafe, a two bedroom living area, and a one bedroom living area on about a quarter acre of land. And the listing price is only $349,000! That’s like about as much as we paid for our house! We can totally afford that! And the view, dear reader, is amazing. Now, it’s not the dream I was thinking of, but! I could totally sell trinkets from local artists just as easily. I’m adaptable that way. Oh, y’all! When I saw this listing, my mind took off running. You just don’t know. I was filled with dreams on how to make it work. I mean, it would be a hella commute for Doug (being on the top of a mountain and all) unless he could work remotely, and we’d be snowed in for up to months a year (being on top of a mountain and all) and there’s possibly bears. Definitely coyotes, all kinds of snakes… but look at the view!

From our visit when we lived there

Sigh… ^_^ Of course, just because we want something doesn’t mean the world will let us have it. We still have a mortgage on this house and we have to sell it. Doug hasn’t got a job in Albuquerque, so even if we wanted to, we couldn’t take out a mortgage on a house/store there right away. I am starting on a business plan for my little store, but I’m still in the researching and development stage. No, the only way we’d be able to make this particular property work is if we had an extra $500,000 lying around to buy the place outright (so we wouldn’t have to worry about a mortgage), stock it up and make any repairs needed. And we just don’t have that kind of pocket change. But hey, it was nice to dream the dream… and while I continue to research my actual dream, I’ll still have the “what if’s…” about this place. Because I think we’re all dreamers in one way or another. You know?

It’s a great view

Plus there are other things to consider about this property — nice as it is. Like the problems we have in our current house with living so far from the city. Like, if something goes wrong we have to pay extra for plumbers, electricians and others to come out. And we’d be miles from any grocery store. Though I suppose having a cafe in the store would help with getting food. 🙂 Having a built-in store and cafe though, that means employees right off the bat, and that’s something I totally am not ready for. I mean, I could, — maybe — but it would take some adjustments. But I might could make it work. Maybe.

And that, dear reader, is the danger of dreaming big. It’s how I got into the mess I’m in now — sitting on a property that’s slowly being eaten alive by blackberry bushes with outbuildings falling into disrepair because I’m too sick to take care of them and Doug just doesn’t want to. I had big dreams, and Doug didn’t share them. A whole lot of miscommunication later and here we are. Now with the Sandia House, Doug’s all… “Oh, that would be nice.” So he’s more on board with that than he was with this property… still I think it’s slightly — ever so slightly out of our reach. I would be much more able to run a shop and cafe than I ever was able to run a small farm, but Doug would still need to help now and again. And therein lies the rub, this is, after all, my dream.


Back to looking for smaller stores and more viable options. Every once in a while though, there will be things like this that come along and I’ll go: “What if…?” and hopefully, dear reader the “What if…” will only last a day or two and I can get back on track. It’s a good thing though, that I don’t have a pile of money sitting around to throw at my dream, because yeah… I can be a bit impulsive at times. Ha!

12 thoughts on “The Dangers of Dreaming Big

  1. Marilyn Armstrong

    I understand how hard it is to get two people on the same real-life page. When we moved into this house, it never occurred to Garry that at some point, he might actually have to take care of anything. Ever. Even though he grew up in a house and had seen the work that went into it, it never crossed his mind that it had anything to do with him. And now, here we are and things are beginning to crumble and he feels that changing a lightbulb is a major construction project.

    My goal these days is to get him on board with understanding how to do basic things, like using the bank application and paying bills. Knowing where to find the title for the house. Knowing how to access my computer so if something happens to me, his world won’t just end.

    I don’t mind doing all the stuff he’s afraid to do but I hate the idea of him sitting here helpless because he never learned how to do the most basic stuff. But I also know that underneath the helplessness there’s a smart guy who actually CAN figure out what he needs to know if he really knows he needs to know it. But I gotta tellya — If I had known he would be quite this useless in taking care of this place? I would never have gotten it. It was always too much for me alone.


    1. Willow Post author

      Doug is a little better about getting things repaired in the house, but he’s… ambivalent about anything to do with the yard and outbuildings. So a smaller property would be way better for us.


  2. Ruth Tourjee

    What a gorgeous view! I don’t share your love of retail, however. I worked as a wholesale sales rep for years, and most of my customers really had to hump to make a living. Plus 80% of all retail ventures fail in the first year, mostly because they are under-capitalized. You are right about being a distance from plumbers and electricians. However, dreaming is a lot of fun and good for the soul.

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    1. Willow Post author

      One of the reasons why we’re looking at buying a residential/retail store is so that Doug can pay the mortgage with his job and we’re not pinning our hopes on the store to pay the mortgage. This way the store doesn’t *have* to turn a profit right away and I can take my time getting it up and running without stressing myself out. But yeah, living remotely has its drawbacks.


  3. Melanie B Cee

    It does have that amazing view! A couple of years ago I noticed a property for sale in Southern Utah. It was a cave dwelling situation…someone had built a home IN the rock. The property was large too, which down in them parts ain’t a bad thing, even if one is lame and can’t do a lot of yard work because nature is the point of living in a place like that. The location wasn’t so great, because like your store there, it was out in B.F.E. somewhere and the winters can be fierce. Lots of drought, but when it snows, it tends to SNOW and the expensive of having to pay someone to plow me out would be substantial. But my mind took off running the ‘what if’ and ‘how could I make that work’ idea, mainly because of the uniqueness of the place and the solitude. Of course it didn’t happen, I like being alone (more than is healthy according to the head doctor) but not THAT alone. Still. It was gorgeous and the thought of being able to see actual stars at night, and be in a place that holds soul healing for me was very tempting. Nice thing was that it also had an electronic iron fence around the compound itself, so the wildlife (which I’m sure (hope anyway) is plentiful) couldn’t get in and have a dog or two for a snack. Que sera sera..

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    1. Willow Post author

      I’ve seen listings for those kinds of houses and I’ve also played the “What if…?” game with them. They’re so unique! And awesome. But I think it takes a certain kind of person to be completely at home in that kind of home.


  4. anupturnedsoul

    Just sharing based on my experience of hunting the dream place.

    Every “perfect dream place which rings all your bells, this is the one if only, but…” you find is part of the process of refining and eventually finding.

    The “Doug” factor is actually incredibly helpful. When something which rings your dream bells, also rings his bells too – then you’ve found it!

    His disinterest, meh, and other issues are valuable pointers to – this is not it. Close but not it. Keep searching ‘it’ is out there and you will find ‘it’ when it is ready, right, time.

    Totally routing for you! Love your dream! 🙂

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    1. Willow Post author

      Doug has stars in his eyes about this place too, but his is more nostalgia from having visited this place all his life. He’s from Albuquerque. He has no idea what goes into running a store/cafe. No experience with either, despite having worked at Target one summer when he was a teenager (he keeps telling me about that ^_^). I love him, but his expertise lies elsewhere.

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