Sharing My World (now with title)


What is the best pick me up that you know of? To shake you out of the blues? I have bipolar disorder. Which means I get depressed a lot. Well, I used to. I’m feeling much better now. When I used to get depressed it was usually chemical, so I would either wait for me to cycle out of it, or I sought professional help and got chemical assistance (anti-depressants). If I had the mean reds it was also generally a chemical imbalance, so the same thing applied. Since I have pretty good meds for my bipolar, I don’t get depressed or manic anymore — aside from a few breakthrough episodes. Having said that, I do sometimes end up bored or mildly sad… blue even. It’s so… frustrating getting blue when one has bipolar because one has to wonder, “Am I just blue, or is this the beginning of a spiral downwards?” But I digress. For the blues, I’ve found that getting a new hobby, or resurrecting an old one, helps for a little bit. Like crochet, knitting, sewing, even video games. I’ve hobby hopped a lot over the years, and picked up a lot of hobbies. But it helps takes my mind off of things.

What would be the title of your memoir?

Where do you like to go when you eat out? Variety is the spice of life. I tend to not like going to the same place over and over. Which is in direct contradiction to Doug’s preferences because he likes routine and will happily eat at the same places times after time without too much thought put into it.

Do you believe in luck? If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all. Hahahahaha! Just kidding. I kinda sorta believe in luck. I wrote more about it here. I guess as in all things, I’m Agnostic about these kinds of things. So the way I think about it. is this. Sometimes things work in my favor, but I don’t think that the world has shifted things to work in my favor. Because there are way too many people in this world for everything to shift itself into my favor. I totally believe in the chaos (or butterfly) effect. I can’t shift one thing without affecting everything else in the world. As unimportant as I am in the grand scheme of things, the things that I do can have consequences (good and bad) throughout the universe. So yeah, I don’t think that the universe aligns itself for or against me so that I can have a “lucky” or “unlucky” time of it. However, I do believe that sometimes things work out well or ill for me, and it’s happenstance. Nothing more. That’s luck. In my humble opinion.

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Aside from necessities, what is one thing you couldn’t go a day without? My computer, or more specifically, the internet. Okay, I might could go a day without it. I’ve actually gone a day or two without the internet recently when our power was out. Okay, that’s a lie, I snuck online using my phone for at least a few moments a day. I even went outside and used my car to charge my phone (and get warm), but mostly so I could go online. There I was, sitting in the my car for heat and internet for almost an hour, I think I can probably go without if I have to, even live without it actually. The things is… I don’t want to. Not anymore. I used to feel guilty for how much time I spent online, but I don’t anymore. I mean, it’s not like I’m shirking work to be online or anything. I suppose there are time when I should be doing other things, but for the most part, there’s usually nothing else to do. Anyway, most of my friends and family live far away from me and I live far away from the bigger cities. I do much of my shopping online and I keep in touch with my friends and family online. I don’t watch television, so I watch videos on YouTube and surf the ‘Net for entertainment. I’m fairly sure I could go back to reading paper books, and different hobbies, but for now, I’m all about teh interwebz.


From Melanie’s Share Your World

7 thoughts on “Sharing My World (now with title)

  1. purpleslob

    “It’s so… frustrating getting blue when one has bipolar because one has to wonder, “Am I just blue, or is this the beginning of a spiral downwards?””- exactly!!


  2. Melanie B Cee

    Heh. I didn’t notice there was NO title when I read it before…then in my email there was another ‘dinger’ from you about SYW and I was scratching my head. I so get it! I do that time to time too! 😛 (and thanks. I’m glad too)


    1. Willow Post author

      It took the first word “Questions” and used that as the title in Reader, maybe that’s what you got in the first email. 🙂


  3. Melanie B Cee

    Thanks Willow for Sharing Your World! I am now off to read your post on luck (which it may be that I’ve already read?) It’s sunny today, although sorta cold, so my mood has improved immensely. There’s really something to those spirals downward (even if the current mental health professionals say I don’t have bipolar depression ((or II)). I’m thinking that a med adjustment may be in the near future because this particular bout of depression was the blackest I’ve ever had.


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